all I can do

I felt your gaze leave me
with it my whole world
fell away, I am now alone
lost and disillusioned
I am sadness and grief
behind a rabbit proof fence

there is no living without you
no meaning in the sunset
no beauty in the storm
the colour drained
from my view
all I see now is
black and white

I walk the night
searching the stars
in the black of my world
they are diminished
as the symphony of life
muted, all notes withheld

following the passing
of each grieving day
the flow of blood
increased
but an empty vessel
once called a heart
still dries and decays

The pain is slicing
into the vein of my soul
I had loved too deeply
for too long, adoring
all your imperfections
I worshipped at
your feet

and now,
the butterflies have stilled
and died in flight
laying in the longest grass
the fleas no longer bite
I am fading away
into the shadow of light

lowering my mantel
I cover my eyes
'cause all I can do now
is cry, cry, cry.