Solitaire

perhaps a stupid thing
laughable, yes
but frustration is intricate
it's web works in mysterious ways -
for example:
a deck of cards.

a game, just a game i said
then i said it again
if you don't say it, it can't be true
so the reverse must work as well.

the numbers i need are nowhere to be found
buried somewhere
waiting to be dug up by clumsy fingers
hoping to be found.
but you, you seven of diamonds,
little bastard
keep running away!
i see you there
hiding behind jack spade
shame on you.

it's maddening you know,
losing in this game
the one you play alone
because you lose against no living thing
just a card
a diamond
a seven.

screw it.
new game!