No one sees

I fight in a smile,
cry in a laugh
I love in sorrow,
care in hatred

I'll hold you up
if I wish you to fall
I'll let you drown
if I wish you to swim

I'll crone I love you
when I can no longer
stand your breathing
I'll scream I hate you
when my heart can't
stand your absence

My head will rest on your chest
when I wish it to stop moving
My words will bring your blood
when I wish you'd hold me

My hand will grasp yours
when I don't want your touch
My fists will beat on you
when I want your soothing carress

I'll call you to me
when your presence
makes me sick
I'll ignore you
when your smile
makes my heart twitch

I'll promise you forever
when I wish to never
see your horrid face again
I'll reject you
when I want to
see you everyday of forever

I'm acting psychotic
when I'm calmer
than a slow going stream
I'm giving up hope
when I have more dreams
than an innocent child

I'm me
when I'm not
I'm hurting
when I smile

Oh, and no one sees