No Easy Explanation

I have faltered
in my walk
as a man
stumbling
fumbling through
menial jobs
for daily bread
(and visible means)
taking no advantage of
generous opportunities
graciously offered
rudely rejected
no plan
no map
from here to where?
drifting
rootless
wondering;
others work hard
diligently
purposefully
it's clearly unfair
I should be so content