What a beautiful morning!
The sunshine hurts my head,
What a day, let's get motivated!
Oh god I wish I was dead.
Aren't you fantastic? I really love you,
Fuck off then,
And leave me, that's what all you bastards do!
Feeling flirty & flamboyant,
How amazing can I be!?
I'm fat, old and ugly, don't you dare look at me!
Love me and need me, our love is indelibly inked,
Screw you then grumpy,
I don't give a shit what you think!
I want you!
Don't touch me!
I haven't ever belonged to you!
I'm sorry, I'm empty can we not start life anew?
Let's go and smell the roses,
& enjoy all the wonder that is spring.
I've got a cold and hayfever,
And I don't do that kind of thing.
I love my life, this new hobby is so divine!
I'm crap at everything,
What an enormous Waste of time.
Oh new shoes! A handbag a necklace
And blue bubble gum!
Nope that didn't fill the emptiness,
Where the hell did that pile of crap come from?
Postman at the door
"got a few more parcels for you today"
I don't remember buying that?
More shit to get in the way!
Fuck off! I hate you,
you mean nothing, let me be.
You are are my whole world, my everything
Please please don't ever leave me !
I'm happy yet sad in a mixed up sort of way,
I'm laughing and crying!
What the hell is wrong with me today?
52 hours of no sleep my body and mind are so wired!
Then 30 hours of none stop sleep,
and yet I am still so tired!
Trying to calm down, wind down,
Snuggled up warm in bed.
Then thoughts of past misadventures,
Dance around in my weary head.
Again
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Hiya babe
Thankyou so much! Yeah I've been really inspired to write recently so I have a few poems to put up, I'd love to know your thoughts xxxx
Can't say that...
I really enjoyed your poem for the content, it's a hard thing to live with, I'm sure.
My son suffers from the same as you and I know that he struggles too. I did like the way you wrote, as though it was really the thoughts that were going through your head. Keep your chin up and keep writing. P.S. Welcome to Neo! ~ Geezer.
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Thankyou
Oh wow Thankyou so much yes I will sort out my profile lol xxx
very evocative. thanks for
very evocative. thanks for sharing a sensitive topic.
Thankyou
Thankyou very much.
It is not easy to create in
It is not easy to create in poetic verses what someone with BPD encounters. You have done a good job in creating that picture. Pretty touching.
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I appreciate your comment Thankyou xx
Young Lady
I missed your entrance, just found you on a discussion with Moonman, so I looked at this piece first.
Welcome to Neopoet and I hope that you find something that gives you something to hold.
It is a hard world where depression is shunned and this has been so for ever, but during the last 50 years there has been more thought gone into the way others can be.
Please don't worry about the comments now, later you may want to comment on others works a bit more as you come to know them.
Shout and scream at life as you wish, write it down, there are many that can't write and feel as you do.
I see you are in Lichfield I think the last time I was there was 1957, I was in the RAF then as a boy entrant but have gained a few years since.
Any time you need anything just ask even if we cant give everything we will listen, You take care and this write is great,
Yours, Ian.T (Sparrow)
Thankyou
I really appreciate your message it means a lot x
Hello, thank you for sharing
Hello, thank you for sharing here your interesting write. All my sympathies to the protagonist. May she has more up time than down.
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Thankyou very much xxxx