halfway home

When your heart beats
and mine no longer can,
I'll be flying into peace
into heavens open land

At the coming of dawn
as night's beauty falls away,
I'll take one last breath
looking forward into day

Gorging on the sight 
as the sun begins to rise, 
I'll remember all of life
through veils of all my sighs

I'll weep for could have beens
for the times I failed you all,
taking on the all sins of life
a saviours penance is my call

The gentle moments birth
when your eyes opened wide,
I felt the purest love of all
I had held you all close inside

As first steps began to run
and falls and tears fell free,
running with your arms out
you'd run to mummy, me

Loving you more than life
I was probably a little nuts,
protecting you with all I had
was finally showing guts

Then the slide into insanity
crept up and mauled my mind,
I hated what I had become
how could I be "that kind"

Somehow we made it through
the mantels of hardship and pain,
and going onto to live a life
I hardly could have dreamed

Given one last wish
I'd had to think awhile,
But after little pondering
I'd ask to see you smile

Watching you grow old
isn't in the God's plan,
my children stay a course
of the common man

I'd love to see your children
watch them walk the earth,
these babies I'll guard over
from moments of their birth

Dont be a little bit sad
dont think your missing me
how can you really miss
what's already halfway free