Neopoet Challenge #17(topic 2) Letter To MY Ex

Letter To My (first) Ex (#2 topic)
(32 lines)Neopoet Random Challenge #17

I just had to know
the answers which eluded me why...

why wouldn't you kiss or hold me
while I was with your child.
I know you loved me at first,
and I was truly beguiled.

at first you seemed delighted with me
you hung on my words and I yours.
got to know each other by night and day,
discoveries made, opening new doors.

you thought I was brilliant at a young age
because of all the books that I read.
I, was impressed equally so
I got into the older man's head.

why in Heaven's name did you do it
took those giant steps away?
no longer touching or talking
a cold shoulder, to my dismay!

now, both of us married to others
and I still need to know why,
you wanted to give up our baby...
and you wouldn't even try.

we were set to meet at the lake that day
but I was too afraid to see you
because of your power unbroken o're me
I didn't want to know if it was true.

you will never know how hard it was to resist
to stay my head and heart, going my own way.
instead I took my cycle for a drive
so I didn't show up on that fateful day.

I know it hurt you for a moment
but no deep lasting scars for us
be silent was the better choice
not open that box, no need to discuss...