halve me

I am only half

In 1970's I died in an accident
went to heaven

My doggy belt was held by my wife
as a dogs
and she pulled me back alive
I was recalled by humans

Half side almost dead
left-hand side of head
was bloated red

How I wish I had flown to heaven

Now again in late 1990's
I faced a calamity
the brain was again fractured
half an eye
half an ear
nerves pulsating

I tell no one
not even to those to me so dear
as death I have been awaiting
at the threshold of time
ere I was born
half alive
half dead

still am swimming ahead many
who ought to never have been read
ought to have been since long dead

I still await!