mas sweat sans heat

another morning bird
calling to dragging
again
shoulders to knees
creak like long timber
leaves like toes
rustling under sheets
here
squint squint
the street light
peeking thru the
blinds’ own missing teeth

balls sagging low
asshole stinking sweat
vinegar and shit
radiate me
but, time,
showers seem
unimaginable
tedious
like brushing
teeth
or finally living
alone

i tear myself
with booze
and easy pussy
free music
youtube and weed
keeping me
cloudy
yet clear
behooving my
inertia
my
progress
evolution
i beat my inner
child like a champ
with chains of shame
now realized-
another reason
to hate myself

spit shit
and chuck
on the toilet bowl
blood sweat
and tears
on the radio

this is where i am
so far
alone
euphoric
spewing non-sense

this one ends
quietly
i lock the door
on my way out
to work